choosing happy at nautilus teachings

 

we are born
into a life
we never chose,
we are raised
with a belief system
and values
picked by our families…
some are exposed
to violence
hatred
anger
hurt
and punished
for trying
to be different
kinder
softer
to even have a voice…
most
seem to be given a
good life!

we grow up.
our eyes open
to things we have
not seen at home.
we hear words
thoughts
expressions…
we become watchers,
observers of motion
in forms so new to us,
we decide
to try them on
see if they fit
or if,
in fact
they encumber us…

the hope
is from
all people
we gather
the best
and become
beautiful
mosaic beings
never afraid
to question
let go
change
or grow
even more…

sometimes
we uproot ourselves
time and time again
never actually
100%
being sure
this
is
where
we
belong.

some.

stay.

they are weary
ragged
patched up
a bit shattered
inside,
yet they have
a healing balm
within
made from
faith
forgiveness
acceptance
strength
and love…

this cycle
of life
is echoed
and repeated
over 300,000
times
every day
as
baby
after
baby
takes their first breath
opens their tiny eyes
and
begins
a journey
of self discovery
learning
and choices
all over the world…

almost as many people
die
every day
in a myriad of ways.
we cannot stop death
we may be able
to hold it off
with proper care
of our bodies
but ultimately
we
die-
birth
technically
can be avoided
and today
more and more
young couples
either opt out
or choose to
only have one child
instead of the
large families
of days gone by…
the truth is
beginnings
for the most part
are
beautiful
just ask any person
who has held
a new born baby
snuggled a tiny puppy
watched seedlings
sprout up
in their garden
the sun
rise over the ocean
or as tom hanks
so eloquently stated
in the movie
sleepless in seattle
as he was talking
about falling in love

“It was a million tiny little things that, when you added them all up, they just meant we were supposed to be together… and I knew it. I knew it the very first time I touched her. It was like coming home… only to no home I’d ever known… I was just taking her hand to help her out of a car and I knew. It was like… magic.”

we
eventually
get
to
choose
our
life
our
love
and
begin
as many times
as we’d like…
we can move
to a new country
a new state
learn different languages
live in huge mansions
or even
tiny little homes.
basically,
we create the life
we wish to live
and in doing this
happiness
and joy
should
encompass us

there are always
obstacles in the way
mountains to conquer
rough seas to navigate
yet some how
we remain
buoyant
until

that day

the one day

someone you love

dies…

death is permanent.
unlike divorce
where although
you may mourn the loss
of the relationship
you gain freedom
and the hope
of another love
filling up your heart…
i know people
remarry
and
relove
after
someone dies
but
it’s
never the same love
because
it just cannot be…

when i lost my mom
30 years ago
my dad
found someone
to relove
and has shared
26 years
with her
so far…

i myself
have vowed
to never
relove
any one person again.
if d dies
i’m
done!

sure,
shake your head
and stop that giggling
or you will spill your coffee!
i have not met one woman
over the age of 60
who lost her husband
who wishes to reattach
to any man.
they love
having
carte blanche
in their life.

my life is full
complete
and whatever space is left
i am giving it
to all our grandchildren
and my dogs…
both
love unconditionally
let me sing
really loud
dance around
with me
listen to me
and i can either
send them home
when i am tired
or as with the dogs
i can just pat the bed
and up they jump
happy to have another
snooze…

we have

one.

tiny.

life.

live it how
you wish
make your own choices

just.

be.

happy.

 

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