IRMA and faith at nautilus teachings

 

 

prayer has always been
a very intricate part of my life.
when i was little it was always,
“God, please make me a fish
so i can swim far far away…”
no matter where i was
or what i was doing
i was just talkin’ to God.
HE
was
and will always be
my
safe
place.
even today
i find myself talking to HIM
about silly things
like,
“thank you for letting me
hit the light green…”
“thank you for my cold water
AC and my tiny home…”
“thank you for….”
the list goes on and on
each day of my life.
part of this comes
from being
extremely introverted
but mostly
it comes from
trust
from
faith
from
knowing
HE
will never let me down…
i know i will have trials
i will go through hard times
i will hurt
but i also know
through it all
i will grow in strength
in confidence
but mostly i will
grow my faith…
as my roots get deeper
and deeper
i am buoyant
because of my faith.
life tests us
constantly
it challenges us
to be better
stronger
wiser
and when we goof up
we may have consequences
but we always learn a lesson…
Irma
has been a thorn in all our lives
for almost two weeks now.
Harvey taught us all
to love the ones we are with
that materialistic things
just don’t matter
and that we must listen
obey
and heed warnings given
even if it means
leaving it all in the hands of God.
i know there are naysayers out there
non-believers
but for me i know
whatever mountain
God has placed before me
there is a lesson to be learned.
what is my lesson?
aha!
this i know….


on my recent trip home
visiting where it all began
the place i built my box of shame
the hurt i held onto
the loss of my mom
i finally,
(thank you God)
realized,
i am no longer small…
so when i am faced with Irma,
just like you are,
i pack up
board up
and prepare to exit
knowing
i may be leaving behind
all those painted canvases
tables, chairs, dressers
i spent so much time creating.
i may be saying goodbye to
thousands of dollars of electronics
i rely upon…
to clothes i love
to furniture i enjoy sitting upon
and a home i built
but i also know
through him
and insurance
i can rebuild
a new life…
family and friends
have been calling and texting me
24/7
i love this…
i love hearing their voices
listening to their giggles
i love
that
they
love
me…
as we face the next few days ahead
as a community
a family
a state
a town
as friends,
let us all remember
to be kind
to be grateful
to love one another
to not bash
or belittle
or judge…
i for one
love my community
i love all my friends
i love my life…
if God chooses to
place before me a mountain
to challenge me,
i for one will
wake up,
thank HIM for saving me
and then begin again
knowing this time
i will build a stronger
smarter
safer
life
filled with much less stuff
and work harder to give back
to help
to teach
to live a life
i will one day leave
knowing
i
did
the
best
i could
and
God
and everyone i loved
and lost
is waiting to welcome
me
home…
hurricane Irma
i do not wish to meet you
but if i do
know
you cannot destroy me
who i am
or what i believe in
and that i will get back up
and rise
through my faith
family and friends
and begin again
and again
and again….
to everyone reading me
be safe
be smart
have faith
and pray…