stillness

beginning
beginning

I awaken to stillness,
roll over and greet God
with thanks and praise.
as i rise i feel HIS soft veil
of grace encompass me
and for a brief moment
i am a child again
wrapped up
in the silky softness
of Jesus’ flowing robe.
i feel HIS strong arms
embrace me
as my tiny hand
falls into HIS palm…
Knowing together
we will walk this day
moment to moment
breath to breath
guide to innocence…

I carry this image with me always.
feeling this tenderness
brings a smile to my lips
and a smoothness to my step
as i walk along the shore
in the warm afternoon sunlight.
the beach is scattered with
many pieces of shell.
Broken and barnacled
they still have their center..

this reminds me of myself
i am scattered pieces of memory
held together with stitches
in different hues of blue paint
knowing i am happiest
when covered head to toe
in the coolness of blue
always needing yellow
for air to breathe.

i imagine
my paint splattered self
enfolded within the
soft silky
oneness
of Jesus’
flowing robe
knowing
HE would still hold me
still love me unconditionally
even if i were to leave
pieces of me
upon hIS cloth
for
this is what
walking with Jesus is about
HE loves us
in our broken and barnacled shape
with sandy feet
tear streaked eyes
flaws and all
HE holds us
within HIS secure
and forgiving essence
assuring us
WE
ARE
LOVED.

barnacled me
barnacled me

holding this knowledge close
i slow my pace
anticipating
greeting
the waters edge
one baby step at a time
knowing i don’t
need to rush in
all at once
and submerge my being
in the cool waters
for what i am searching
for is already
inside of me
HIS
voice
echoes
calling me
rocking me
to
my
center
my Nautilus
GOD