break wide open at nautilus teachings.

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there are moments
times in my life
when i want
to break
wide open
when i want
to fall
to the ground
and weep
like a
new born baby
i want to grab
my
security blanket
and hide…
but then,
light
warms
my soul
wind
caresses
my back
and i feel the
presence
of
God
encompassing me
and holding me
within
the palm
of his
hand…

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it is at
these moments
i feel the strength
of my
Faith
nourish and
feed me…
i have
taken on
the shame
of those
who have
abused,
hurt
or wronged me
and if i carry this
year after year
it wears down
my soul
until
i feel
unworthy…

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so
i started loving
myself
by releasing
it all.
by forgiving
without
expectation
of any
acknowledgement
from the person
who hurt me.
and just
loved
this
curious, kind, creative
child
i am
even at
the age of
53
and
gave it all to God…

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patience
is what i learned
in the stillness
i practiced daily
through prayer,
meditation
and mostly listening
for the call
of HIS voice
my home,
my center,
my buoy…
answers
came
some times in
slow melodic
lapping gently waves
of warmth
and
other times
cascading all around me
in a swirl
so powerful
i needed
write
and paint
it all out…

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my book
Nautilus
was one of those
hurricanes
swirling around me
so fast
i wrote it in 6 hours…
a gift given to
me
which
shares my
healing journey
through my faith…
when you combine
my love
of
faith
art and
teaching
this workshop
is what i got.
thank you for
believing in me
and having the courage
to break open
your soul
and let the
poison out
and
HIS
healing
grace
in…