defining myself

she loves me
she loves me

Define:

To state or set forth the meaning of-

The meaning of me?
To my mother I was the stars
To my father
His 4th child?
To my two brothers
A mistake
A target
A daily place to release their anger

To explain or identify the nature or essential qualities of-

I was made from love
I was given love, faith, fear
I grew in love, faith, fear, silence
Identity?
I was the 4th child
Her heart
His
daughter who needed protection
Their
We wanted a baby brother
child

To fix or lay down definitely: to define ones responsibility-

The law was laid down
My mother would get no voice
My brothers would rule
I would hide under the steps
And be taught cornered silence
I was definitely afraid, scared, silent…
The law was laid down by the two toe headed terrors
My father attempted to rule
My mother
Cried, prayed, obeyed
I turned inward
Towards the creation of my own world

To determine or fix the boundaries or extent of-

I was my brothers property
They called me what they wanted
Did what they pleased
And laughed when punished
I
Am
Not
Anybodies
Property
I do not claim
Any resemblance to any person
Accept my mother

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To make clear the outline or form of-

I was defined by the scars they left
By the black lines I drew around my colors
To protect them
I was defined by the absence of a man
Who should have beaten the crap out of my brothers
And in turn was too weak
I was defined by watching my mother hover over my father
Out of obedience
or love?
I was defined by her hands which protected me
By her loved which encompassed me
And by her smile which warmed me
I was defined by my faith
I was defined by my drawings
And now am defined by
My words too

To set forth the meaning of a word, phrase-construct a definition-

The definition of me
Is only found
In one place
Within
I will not allow
Any person
To dictate
My memory
My feelings
My ambitions
My life
I
Define who I am
I live true
And
The
People
Who
Should
Have
Defined
Me
And
Did
Not
Do
So
Nor
Have
Tried
Too,
can make their own peace

with

the

Lord…

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