mom to mom at nautilus teachings

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puffy eyes
exhausted body
happy heart
singing soul
an abundance of love
blessed
sort of describes
how i feel today…
being in my tiny
home art studio
sipping my latte
boys by my feet
house quiet
i feel
like the soft wind
filling up the white sail
upon my Orion,
like the flat
of the deep blue ocean
which invites me to float
buoyantly in
until a baby wave
rests me upon the soft sand,
i feel like a heavy eyelid
needing time
to remember
embrace
celebrate
and etch into memory
the absolute
incredible
gift
of this past weekend…
i believe you cannot
truly understand
anything at all in life
unless you have lived through it…

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as i watched my son
so flipping handsome
in his new blue suit
and fancy shoes
marry his stunning
soft, sweet and giggling bride,
every page of his life
fanned before me
each one followed
by a gentle tear
as they said their vows
exchanged their rings
turned towards us
as husband and wife
this old mid-western girl
felt blessed…
pictures were taken
drinks poured
toasts said
meal eaten
and then
she danced…

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father and daughter
heart to heart
in the autumn crisp air
we watched
knowing
he too was seeing
pages of her life
flashing fast
through his own memory…
this is something all parents share…
we don’t loose a child
we gain
a child
and our hearts grow bigger
we love deeper
and we open the first page
of “them”…
paste the wedding photos
upon the new pages
and like all parents
dream of those
grandchildren!!!
but let’s go back
to the dance…
she twirls
smiles
embraces
loves
her father
as her beautiful mother
watches
tear streaming down her cheeks
with unconditional love…
the dance ends
we share stories
with friends
and just as
i throw my head back
laughing at a memory shared
their is a soft
tap, tap, tap
upon my shoulder
and the words
“mom,
will you dance with me…”

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and we dance
holding on so tight
to this light of my life
who i am so so so proud of
knowing
HE
is
loved
by
HER…
WOWZA!
i touch his cheeks
look into his soft blue eyes
hold him close
then release
him
to begin
to take his first step
into the life
he always imagined
and dreamed of…
i will be the floating light
in the distance
that first heard his heart beat
felt his kick
and knew
as my mother told me
the first day i held him
“love him fiercely, Sher
but start letting him go…”
in the words of my
dear mom
who as you all know i love so much
and miss even more,
Nick and Jules,
“it is not the end dearhreart, it is the BEGINNING…”
God bless your love and marriage…

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