walking in faith

centered faith
centered faith

i grew up thinking
i was a mistake.
yet as a small child
i believed-
i had FAITH.
I could feel HIS presence
through God’s words
i was filled with the
knowing
that i was full of
HIS grace,
that God did not make mistakes…

knowing
knowing

my entire life i could
hear a voice
of inspiration,
intuition-
it has guided me
down each path i chose.
this does not mean
i am mistake free!
but,
through it all there
was this still small voice
within me.
i understood i must listen
and be still to
hear the voice of God
I found solace and healing
in dark corners of the closet-
it is here
in this
quiet
i learned
to listen
through prayer.
I am told
time and time again
in words written and said,
by scholars
by scripture
by mentors, friends and trained professionals,
LET IT GO,
GROW UP,
FORGIVE,
BE AT PEACE…

mute the voices
mute the voices

however
this advice
doesn’t stop the pain,
the hurt,
the loss…

of course,
i love,
laugh,
give,
grow
and i am happy…
but my soul
has a crack
if i had raised scars
if my skin was weeping with blood
if i was torn up,
shredded,
bloodied,
dirty
would you then
believe my story
you cant see the scars
or my wounds
you cannot feel or breathe
within the depths of my hurt
you don’t know
you cant feel it
i own it
i live it
it suffocates me…

colors of my faith
colors of my faith

MY FAITH SAVES ME

it gives me fresh air
forgiveness
healing
inspiration
acceptance
love
light
grace
energy
i
learned
to place GOD
in the center
of all i think
say or do…
each day
in my stillness of meditation
i ask GOD
to come in to my life
and lead me
down HIS chosen path.
I feel HIS hand
encompass mine
and i am once again
a child
wading through the
gurgling brook
chasing minnows
giggling
twirling
and feeling
unconditionally loved.
There is only one Nautilus
one center
one GOD…
may you feel HIS grace, light,
love, energy, acceptance
and forgiveness
as you walk
in Faith.

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