word piercing at nautilus teachings

one word can hurt just as much as a thousand knives...
one word can hurt just as much as a thousand knives…

the piercing
of the skin
stung
but it was
the brutal
sharp edges
of
her
words
which
chained
me to
the bottom
of memory
once
more…
i bobbed up and down
tethered.
no matter
how many times
i plucked off the bloom
the weed
kept budding-
fertilizer
meant to enhance
its beauty
failed…
as well as exposure
to warm energy
love
and
light.
what was i to do
except
pull it
out
from the roots
dig to the very core
of its birth
and
rip it out…
no matter how hard
i tried
how low i dug
it persevered
and would
always
stand tall
because
it had released its
poison
into the ground
and
here i was,
bound to it
and
feeding from it
like
it was nourishment
i could not do without…

even if its someone you love
even if its someone you love

shattering
bad habits
is difficult…
many people fail
and lead a life
succumbing to
the demonic calling
of many vices.
Sure,
they may go days,
weeks even months
free from
their
barnacled
attachment
but
eventually
they loose
and
pain
takes over once more.
when faced
with a life changing
decision
as big as this
we must first ask ourselves
will my life be better
by giving this up?
happier?
healthier?
will i be stronger?
the answer
to all of these
will vary
depending upon
what you are giving up…

release or renew you choose
release or renew
you choose

when
releasing a relationship
this is most
certainly
true
and the
hardest…
we become attached
even
to anger,
hurt
betrayal
we think this is normal
and that we are just
an idiot
or weak
for not being
perfect
for the person
we believe we
need in our life.
so we endure
we forgive
we apologize
we
live in pain
we weep
in the darkness
and we
root
deeper
into the
poisonous
soul
they have surrounded us with.
soon the
piercing of the skin
is not a big deal
and begins to
bounce off of us
we learn to deafen
our ears to the words
spewed forth
and we
accept
the life,
the love
we believe
we deserve…

make the right choice
make the right choice

i
lived this-
i left this…
yet
the damaged seeds
took root
in
someone else
i love
and i am now
faced
with
leaving
them
behind too…
but before
i do
i am giving it all to God
and
waiting in silent stillness
for
His
calling
and thinking
maybe
i too
have
more
to
learn…

thanks be to God
thanks be to God